Day 13 - The Fear of Starting Again

There’s a fear that I keep returning to — the fear that if this doesn’t work, I will have to start again.

It’s as though I’m holding my breath, hoping the dojo is the answer — not just because I want it to succeed, but because I don’t want to go through the pain of starting over.

I’ve done that before — too many times — chasing ideas, pushing forward with energy and belief, only to find myself back at the starting line.

But the dojo feels different.
I believe in it.
I feel calmer.
I feel clearer.
I feel more patient.

And yet... I can’t ignore the fear.

That quiet voice whispering, “What if this isn’t it?”
“What if you’re just building another path that leads nowhere?”

But what if that’s the wrong question?

Maybe the real question is:
What if this IS it — and I sabotage it by not trusting the process?

Maybe this fear isn’t telling me to run — maybe it’s asking me to stand firm.

To trust what I’m building.
To keep walking forward — not because I’m certain of the outcome, but because I believe the path itself is the answer.

I know this:
If I abandon this, I’ll be abandoning myself.

And that’s something I’m not prepared to do.

End of Transmission.

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